Yes, I know, t's been ages since I last blogged! For the past months I've listed so many topics I wanted to reflect on and write about but I stopped me . And I'm sorry about that, but here I am, writing again! The things is, more than sharing my experiences and lessons learned with you, this blogging thing has also helped me make sense of all the things that happened and did not happen. Because you know, as a type 1, I live on having made sense of something so messy and chaotic. Tough enneagram type, eh. I've been on a reflection rut (also a running rut which hopefully I get to write about later) since my last blog probably because I just never found the courage to do so. I have just realized how it takes so much courage and at the same time so much humility to reflect. When a bad thing happens to me, I never want to relive that moment EVER. I don't want to be reminded of my mistakes and more so how stupid I have been. I just want to keep it in a tightly...
n. a kind of psychological exoskeleton that can protect you from pain and contain your anxieties, but always ends up cracking under pressure or hollowed out by time—and will keep growing back again and again, until you develop a more sophisticated emotional structure, held up by a strong and flexible spine, built less like a fortress than a cluster of treehouses.